To Every End; New Beginnings

Ah yes, the sweet smell of fresh web-page. Such a vast world for me to explore, not only the interface itself but for myself. Blogging is such a foreign concept to me, but I can find some similarities in between it and my usual storytelling and writing.

• Well, we mix words together to form meanings in both forms of literature.
• Deeper meanings and venting will always ensue
• Most of all, we (the individual) are unheard

Sometimes... I wonder how long it takes before a man or woman is deemed visible. For many, many years we live under a protective blanket, wove from the fabric of pure and sometimes demonic outspokenness. Never will every person achieve their own goal, but we surely try. For me, I live to make an impact on life itself. The taste of change and alterations satisfies my soul in a warming way.

Although, there is a gut-wrenching twist to the sheer bliss of satisfaction:

Turmoil.

For everyday that we live, we are doing something in somebody's perspective as "wrong". We are not truly created equal in interests and personality, and because of this we (the people) will always have conflicting motives and fascinations. Be it Abraham Lincoln and Ulysses S. Grant, two iconic men in America's short history. Growing up just as another boy in town, the two rose to be great people in the eyes of their ruled masses.

Take it from another person's perspective. People found Ulysses S. Grant as a hero for declaring independence from the Union (North-Eastern America), while others found him as the very sin they tried to avoid. Undoubtedly, people felt the same ways about Abraham Lincoln, alleged "legendary" president of the United States.

Two insignificant people rose to the top-tier to drive America into a spiraling grave, forever leaving an impact on the United States with viewed negative effects and positive effects. As seen from the world of today and yesteryear, people will always believe in and feel passionate about different people, ideas, fascinations, and personalities. Simply nothing can be done, so the only left to do, naturally, would be to sit-aside and let nature do it's work.

Wrong.

I felt the empowerment to create this blog because I believe every individual has the right to voice themselves, in the essential fact that they don't need a democratic, communist, republican, or parliamentary government to do so. We hold the divine right to do as we please under the rule of no man, for the ideas of fact, fiction, order, and law are simply creations of the human mind, and nothing more.

By this point, you can assume I've caught your attention. Let me tell you and the rest of the world around you a little bit about myself that you can't find anywhere else.

I enjoy the things life has to offer in it's most basic form. Love and peace is what brings the world together, and that is how I view it. Simply as a perspective. I believe the world can be a place of unspoken horrors, yet it can transition to unfathomable beauty. Such an interesting place that we live in, isn't it?

I live my life as would a Buddhist, though I can't come up to my fears and reveal to my most immediate family that how I live is not true to theirs. I'm only human and I feel the need to hate, though I work my mind to shun the feeling of it. I'm a simple person with simple needs, though they may take a toll on the lives around me, more-so in a positive way.

I'm no idol, I can guarantee you. I'm a failure in the eyes of an important few. I've failed myself and one of my most sacred goals just recently, and I've deceived my own morals. Such is life in the world of the living, and it is the taxing price we pay to have the luxury to stay the way we are now. Breathing.

"I believe I am all of the things above, and nothing less. We all see things no one else will ever see, nor will they understand. Maybe we don't want to know what's on the other side. We will never be all of the things we want to be, but we can always try," I once said to a friend in dire need. I take that quote for myself and lock it away in a corner of my mind, the safest place I have on my entire being. What are we without our own thoughts and expressions?

With expression comes social interaction, that is always fact. We can't express ourselves without screaming out to the world, crying, and extending our vocal cords at full capacity, preaching the "word".

I want to go out in the streets of Chicago, preferably Millennium Park one day. I just want to stand there, in the middle of all the commotion, and scream at the top of my lungs, "I am not the man you want me to be! Accept me for who I am!"

I say to myself, do it... What is holding you back? The truth is, we have an invisible force that mimics a solid wall, keeping us from doing the things we want to do. The social norms that we are bound to will never let us travel to the distant edges of our own self-discovery, and find what we most want to uncover. It only takes the will-power to break through these invisible barriers projected through our persistent fear, and reach out to the open world and simply soak it in.

I end my day saying to myself, "I just want to live. I don't want to die." I don't literally interpret myself as an immortal force, but I don't want to spend my days dying in a shell of regrets. When the day comes that I actually have spent all of my days, I want to lay on my death-bed knowing that I lived to my full potential. Living in peace is the only thing I could ever, really, truly want.

Everything that races through my mind is such a blur, yet I truly hope I can record my own travels on this blog for others to read and seek empowerment to do the things they've always wanted to do. Money and fear, on top of social norms, will never hold you back from discovering yourself as the humble person you've always wanted to be.

So I bring myself to you, and congratulate you for delving into my deepest thoughts. I truly hope you will continue to cycle through my mind and live with your own being through my own experiences.